Friday, May 13, 2011

a bit overwhelmed.

I cannot believe it's been literally a month since we found out we were moving, and two months since we first laid eyes on our Sweet Pea.  I've cried everyday of this last month. I cry on the way to church, small group, and at both of those places too, while I'm driving, on the phone with dear friends, as I write emails, when I'm laying in bed at night processing, in the shower and during other daily things like cooking and vacuuming - sheesh, you'd think I was pregnant (I'm not)!

All the impending changes have been a really hard concept to wrap my brain around. I honestly feel completely overwhelmed. At the same time, I know that I can only do one thing at a time!  In the past week I've been to the medical building on base 6 times, been to a doctor downtown and been to the dentist!  There are a lot of clearances that need to take place in order to move overseas. The AF wants to make sure our family is in good health and that if we are not that the base in Germany can provide for our needs.  So far we are all in good health so it shouldn't be a problem. You can certainly pray that our Sweet Pea doesn't have any needs that can't be met in Germany.  If that's the case, we'll tackle that when the time comes.

We are planning on selling one, if not both of our cars, I'm trying to get the house ready for a new baby, we are organizing all the adoption stuff so that everything (that we can control) transitions smoothly once Sweet Pea is home (getting a lawyer in place to finalize, setting our social worker up so she can come visit us ASAP when we arrive back in the states, know which documents we need to get Sweet Pea a US passport immediately following her finalization). All the stuff I feel like our family shouldn't have to be worrying about during the transition of bringing a baby home.  I'm not trying to complain, I'm just hoping I can let you in on some of the stresses we are feeling. It's hard to handle sometimes.

David gets more and more excited everyday about the move.  I think I'm more of an ebb and flow kinda girl.  I get excited one hour and the next I'm feeling total heart break as I think of leaving this amazing place.  I would never want to fast forward my life and miss out on anything but, much like what I was feeling when David was deployed, I just want the hard parts to really short and soak in the good stuff.  But, again... I want to savor.  Savor my time with Norah.  Savor this wonderful town and the nearness (although not that near) of family and savor my dear friends here in Spokane.  Ah, so much to be thankful for.

Thanks for letting me vent.  Sometimes I just need to let it out so it's off my chest!

Two highlights from my past week:

Mother's Day with my girl!
*Please note my SuperMom shirt!*
So blessed to have been with my amazing mom on Mother's day!  What a gift from the Lord to have a strong, God-fearing, fun mom!!


Sue Asbjornsen said...

Nice job of venting. I listened. Praying for you.

SaraBethJ said...

umm....where can I get one of those shirts. Maybe it will help with the meltdowns I seem to have every Thurs! It was great talking to you the other day. I am praying for you guys for smooth transitions and for your heart to feel at peace in the midst of all the chaos. Just looked at a pic of you pregnant with David' parents. Do you remember how crazy the thought of having a baby and having him away was? And here you are. Hopefully these couple of months will be a time you look back on later and say, Wow we really made it and we are better for it! Love you!

Amy and Jonathan Hook said...

I love you, Kelly Blomgren! With all that you just listed (which I know isn't even all of it), of course you are feeling what you're feeling. I'll be praying with you that these coming days will be full of joy despite the stresses. Know there are many people here who want to help you -and who love you. And who will be savoring every last moment before you board that plane to Germany :).

Eryn said...

Kelly, I can relate to feeling overwhelmed and excited about the bringing home baby...that alone is enough to be overwhelming, let alone moving out of the country!

Hang in there, momma. You know where your strength comes from, and HE will provide all you need for ALL of it.
It is so good to vent, too...and process all you're feeling.

Bless you, girl!

Future Mama said...

Hang in their girlie, you got this!! And feel free to vent anytime ;-)

Much love,
Future Mama

Ashley said...

I'm so glad you commented on my adoption blog! It's so nice to meet you! Email me so we can compare notes!


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